COLORS
-Yashika Jassal
The blank, -unexplored space, the blank canvas stared at me.
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Long enough for the silent void inside of me to scream,
loud enough for me to hear.
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Urging me to spill my chaos, mess, and beauty from the palette I held in
my heart and hand so firmly.
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I wondered which shade I should use to cover the whiteness of this void,
-unexplored, raw, and the pure mess which reflected in my eyes.
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Should I cover it with the scarlet color of love?
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Not red of the fragrance from my beloved's flowers but
of the wounds bleeding from the eyes.
Red tears wrapped in old torn letters producing the yellow ageing shade,
tucked away in the safe old trunks,
-far far away from the reach of my heartbeats and the eyes of the world.
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Should I cover it in the brown shade of coffee beans which reminds me
of the mundane, -unbearable life or the brown shade of hair tresses that
float freely by the gentle breeze of sweet,
-short escape once in a while?
Should I cover it in the green shade of my Dad's shirt and his protective embrace?
Or should I cover it in the pink of the ice creams he bought for me or
in the rosy-colored pink glasses through which I used to view the world?
Should I cover it in the ebony black of my fears,
the dusky orange of my loathing, the grey of hopelessness?
Or should I cover it in the lilac of optimism,
the silver from the cloud linings I stole from the harbor of my eyelids,
or the sun kissed yellow of hopes, warmth, and smiles?
Should I cover it in the transparent bubbles of my wild dreams which
ricochet with every shade of reckless enthusiasm and energy trapped within me,
clawing to be unleashed to the fullest?
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The myriad of shades waiting to be unleashed,
spilled and flown onto the canvas of the world.
Waiting to be embraced by warm eyes.
Filling the void of unexplored spaces into a mesmerizing picture.
The shades within me are pretty, weird, aesthetic, peaceful, -wild, free,
trapped, innocent, mischievous, chaotic, scary, and alluring.
The shades of me are the whiteness of the void which could engulf the entire canvas
and the beautiful unicorn spilling rainbow of colors that are nothing but
the affectionate tones of love, hope, and sunshine.